Self.

  (Disclaimer:  Excuse the horrific grammatical error. I really don't have any excuse other than being lazy.)

For the last couple of weeks I have been thinking a great deal about self-worth.  And I wonder to myself, What does a person who truly value their sense of being look and act like? What does self-love, self-worth, self-preservation, self- realization look like?  What is a complete human being?  And does finding a purpose, function, use in life really is the meaning of finding happiness?

You see I don't think I know what it means to be happy and fulfilled.  I don't know if it is even worth the journey.  As a child I always wondered about  how life works as an adult. I always envisioned them to be demi-gods because they always had an answer for everything.  Now being an adult I realize allot of what  they were saying was pure shit.  A facade.  It was during my teenage years I realize that adults were indeed stupid and unfortunately still are.  But I digress.

Could self-worth also be a facade, a false concept telling people that there is  more to there existence than what they believe, see, hear and know? A new means for talk shows fill the audience with wild ideas only to sell them new products or promote guru's, spiritual leaders and actors.

  I don't know. I like to think it is indeed real.  That there is so much more to us than what we can even dream.  But what is self-worth? I believe it's a form of validating one's existence, life, worth, dream, desire, purpose and function. But what is it really?
Maybe I try to answer that next time.